So, Danny had to be in at work at five. And since his alarm clock is on the effing fritz and yesterday he was too sick to go out to get a new one, when the first alarm went off and he was like, "I'll get up at the second one, I stayed awake until he was out of bed and dressed and out the door. Shouldn't have been too big of a deal right? HA! Because once again, Chris woke up with us, and is currently running around the living room, because guess who's not sleepy? grmbl grmbl. Happy fucking Tuesday everyone.
Although, I can't say i'm that surprised. Chris conked out around seven thirty eight o'clock in Danny's arms on the couch while i was doing my homework. It was really cute and all, but dammit, I'm still tired because I didn't get to sleep until around eleven cause I had to get my homework in on time. I wasn't going to get half credit on that just because I was tired.
And boy, was I tired. And it didn't help that I was piling on guilt for being angry. I was angry at Danny cause he had a migraine, which meant no break for me from Chris, at Chris because he wouldn't let me do my homework, even though I had spent all afternoon playing with him, at myself for not getting my homework done sooner, etc. So when Chris fell asleep eating dinner, I went into the bedroom where Danny was laying down to get rid of his headache, and just broke.
Full on, fetal position, breakdown. I haven't cried that hard since...god, I don't even remember when i cried that hard before. I did feel better after that, but still, fifteen minutes of crying always makes me uncomfortable, especially when I'm convinced I should be taking care of those around me, and not the other way around. I mean, Danny was feeling like crap yesterday, I should have been making him feel better, not having a nervous breakdown on him.
I did get my homework done, which is yay, and another yay? Nick Andros got accepted in aiodeoffcampus. Which I am completely excited about. Although I didn't get friended back by the mod journal, so i can't do the friend add or request "housing" for him, or even update my contact info...although I could do that with my Swink Journal, so that part's not the big issue. I got accepted into the comms all right though, so that's good. All I know is i'm gonna have fun with those two characters.
Let's see, oh yeah, I need to work on those Stay Alive icons, and finish those Mask of Zorro icons. Only one problem. While I found one of my jump drives, the one with my completed graphics, and homework, ironically, I can't find my jumpdrive that has all my raw materials on it. Which is why I haven't been with the icon making.
but since my completed graphics jumpdrive also happens to have my stories on it, I should work on those today. Although I'm hoping Chris will be calm enough now that I can go lay down with him until I wake up. I don't care if he sleeps or not. I just want him to lay with me quietly in my arms while i pass out and sleep.